Mofobian.com was a domain I registered when I turned 23. I didn’t know anything about programming or web design but I was highly interested, and I knew that I learned best through experimentation and practice. I did it purely out of curiosity and an allure to what was seemingly an endless possibility. The potential was endless and I wanted to see what I could create.
I began the web page as a simple PHP forum inspired by a group of gamers I grew up with who had their own forum at http://jumpschool.com – which I do believe no longer exists. I went by the name of MightyMouse at the time and I passionately played a total conversion of Unreal Tournament called Strikeforce. Jumpschool was where the nerds sat and all the cool kids made fun of.
In 2016 (I was 19) I was in a roll over car accident that resulted in a traumatic brain injury, upon returning from the dead and reconnecting with this group, I got terribly intoxicated on my 23rd birthday and registered this domain. I had a new group of buddies I talked to often from tumblr.com, they were intrigued by my passion for expression and my ability to put my feelings into words. Most of them were esoteric perverts.
I created a forum for them to migrate to and isolate themselves from the rest of the internet. It was a public forum and nothing we did was exceptionally wrong or dirty. We socialized on a very humanistic level with morals and decency. We had a civil forum. I played with this for a year or two and suddenly got the urge to do more. I created a video gaming media outlook, very much like gametrailers.com (RIP).
Not only did I post about video games, but I wrote articles concerning subjects such as sociology, more specifically the human condition and the behaviors of society. I wrote an article about long distance relationships called “Your Princess is in another castle”, being about love and that it isn’t necessarily right outside your doorstep. That the internet erased the boundaries set by distance and expanded on the selection, it made the search more fruitful.
I wrote another one called “Beauty in Sociology”, this one was directly influenced by tumblr and their obsession with thigh gaps and thin bodies. I argued that beauty wasn’t in body weight, but in an individuals health, physically and mentally. That being healthy was sexy, it was attractive, and there was an extreme in both directions. I was terribly interested in how the mind works and why people believed the things that they did. I wrote about influence and the decay of individualism.
Romancing the Reaper, which I’ve also posted as my first blog article on this website, was originally written in fragments over the years as Facebook statuses. I converted them to a 9 page poem by carefully filtering through years of status updates and putting them into a story format on tumblr. It is basically a biography of my heart. I’ve fallen into the depths of depression, entertained a romantic obsession with a friend who didn’t requite my emotions, played with death numerous times, and fell in love with our one and only mutual friend, the Grim Reaper.
I created a stream using Livestream.com and their casting application. At the time I had a very powerful internet connection and took advantage of it by streaming myself playing video games. This way I could advertise for the developers with a live performance and talk about the game mechanics. This was pre-twitch. I invited my friends to join, and sometimes we would have movie nights where I would stream a film. I embeded a tinychat below the livestream so that we could socialize with our webcams on. Pre-group Skype.
The website was compromised by a malicious user who injected my database with malware and caused my website to be abruptly liquidized. I purge my database and deleted all content without saving a single thing. I’d already been considering starting over and this gave me a reason to. However, after I deleted everything I got very distracted and very busy with other things in my life. I neglected to use my webhost for anything but the FTP server and hosting files to share for years.
I attained my web development certification in December of 2018 and am now attempting to resurrect my previous glory. Although I will need to bring something new to the table since all my old antics have entire platforms built for that sole purpose now. I’m not sure what I am going to do but this is a good start, by restoring my website and adding more community interactions. I’d love to think of a way the community could actually direct the evolution of my platform, but we’ll see.
Thank you for checking out my website!